Shauna’s Story

I just came across this website. I have known for sometime that I’ve had ADHD. I got diagnosed almost a year and a half ago. I feel that it has ruined so much of my life.

I can’t follow through with anything. I am completely unorganized. I read book after book on self help and get pumped up and motivated but lose interest the very next day. If I had to describe myself in a word it would be chaotic.

My husband is the complete opposite of me. Organized, methodical, and very much on time.

I am late with every bill, I can’t keep up with a check book. I lose my keys daily. My finances are a mess. I forget everything that I say. My children say that I never follow through with anything I say. I have organizers to organize my organizers. Nothing has a “place” in my house. I’ll make a special place for an item and forget that it’s there. I leave my shoes all over the house. When my children are away, it’s easy to see who the real mess maker is.

There is a trail of debris that follows me. I feel completely controlled by this disorder. It drives me insane. It affects every part of my life. My friends, relationships, jobs…everything. I feel like a failure. I just want to be normal. I feel like a failure as a mother. I can’t even remember to follow through with punishments and groundings.

I have been on adderall but lost a job and have not been able to purchase the medication. I can’t function without it. I will have insurance again in December and can’t wait to gain control of my life again. I hope that I’ll be able to learn valuable information and learn from others on this website. I’m glad I stumbled across it. Thanks