I’m a 37 year old man with the attitude of 20 something. Ive never felt understood and often find myself misunderstood. I was diagnosed unofficially about 5 years ago and officially diagnosed about 1 year ago. Although I feel that knowing is good, Im still struggling in my relationships and job.
School was always tough, but I managed to graduate from high school and go on to college. I majored in psychology/art and graduated in 92. After I went on to be a social worker and was fortunate enough to have a great boss who pushed me to do my very best. After about 4 years, she retired and I was suddenly under someone who was not as understanding. As the pressure got worse, I resisted, but remained at my job. Soon I was offered a supervisory position, but I imploded and started resisting the pressure to do more. I left a good career for reasons that are still unclear to me. I wasted another great opportunity just because I couldnt deal with the situation.
I jumped from job to job after that and ended up back in the social work field. After about 3 years, I imploded again, and now Im doing the very thing I never wanted to do. I ended up leaving home for a job and left my wife and children behind.
I have a good job, but Im tired. Even after the counseling and prescriptions, I find myself in the same place, feeling the same way.
It tough finding anyone who understands what it means to be ADD and what that feels like.
Thanks for listening.