Cassy’s Story

I’m 36, the mother of five, and was diagnosed with ADD about two years ago. My doctor wanted to put me on an ADD medication, but it raises your blood pressure and I’m already taking an antidepressant that does that, so I refused. I’ve been in and out of therapy since I was ten and find it extremely hard to stick with because I am always missing the appointments. My husband of the past eight years thinks I’m lazy because I can’t keep a job, cook, or keep the house immaculate on a daily basis.

Growing up, my mom thought the same thing, as did my teachers. In most of my classes I was told I needed to stop staring out the window, daydreaming, and focus on the lesson. I used to be a really good artist, writer, and singer, but a severe lack of confidence has kept me from pursuing any of my dreams. I am in college now, trying for an English degree because I really would like to become an Editor one day. I started going to college almost eight years ago.

With five children, my ADD and depression, and various other problems it has taken me a long time to get just an associates degree. I have changed my major at least five times and get so frustrated that I cannot just pick something and stick with it.

I had severe panic attacks and was housebound at times for nearly ten solid years of my life (during my twenties) and two nervous breakdowns. I feel like a major failure most of the time and my husband is divorcing me because he can’t handle it anymore. I need therapy, but I would love it if I could find someone to come to me, so I wouldn’t miss any appointments. And that’s where I’m at so far. Thanks for listening.